Expectations

When you spend so much of your life
being told you aren’t good enough
it’s hard to hear when someone tells
you you’re their everything.
When all you know is the strife
that should make you tough
but through all the screams and yells
I can’t seem to think.
I spent so much of my time
trying to live up to their expectations,
never worrying about how to be
happy and fulfilled with myself.
There’s been too many signs
that I’d never live up to perfection,
But those imperfections are me
and I’ll survive without your help.
I spent so much time begging
to make you see how I felt
to make you hear what I need
to make you believe in me.
I realize I was just failing
and you never dealt
with the problems I see
of what I need you to be.

~Leila P. Morgan